Dear Ave,
This is a letter to myself, hope you will like facing the truth that you were trying to avoid for so long.
You are different, you are unique. You work differently. You were always like this and you will always be.
You can't change this.
There are some things however, that you can do. Partially for yourself, and partially for the good of other people, this planet.
You need to look after yourself.
You need to nourish your soul, to heal your heart. This sensitivity can be a gift, but also a curse if you don't know how to live with it. So here I am 34 years old, for the first time I accept myself, who I am.
I'm very sensitive. I can feel everything. But mostly, other people. You will always give more, than you receive or then you will not receive at all. But you don't care. You're nobel, and other wordly.
You need to stop suffering because of this and start embracing yourself and this side within yourself.
Your emotional intelligence is very high and only a few people are like you. For most of the time, you are surrounded by people who are less sensitive, or less developed emotionally. That's why also why you suffer. Because you project from your heart, you expect other people to function this way too.
So acceptance is the first step. The second step, is that you will always understand other people, but not too many could feel what you feel. You will alway be lonely in a way. In other way, you will always have yourself to understand all this. You preferred it to be this way.
People who are your kind will recognise you, they will see you. You will always know who they are.
However, they will be fewer, just some.
Your world is beautiful, colourful and full of miracles. And you don't need to do anything to achieve this state, you constantly live like this. You need to be proud of yourself. The only thing you need to do is to be in constant connection with your soul.
You need to look after yourself.
This is the collision within yourself that constantly causing war in your spirit.
You are different, because you know it. Others are looking for truth for times and times. You were born under a lucky star. You need to flourish, open like a rose.
There are two patterns you need to face:
One, is when people have a different image of you, a worse one.
It's because you have a different image of yourself, you think you don't deserve to be good, acknowledged, or appreciated.
The other is, that you're choosing partners who can not give you what you need. You're trying to change yourself just to be on their level. You're delaying your own growth.
Az your girlfriend A said, you should share your life moments with a person who is joyful and loves life.
Please make sure, you make time regularly to sit down, look deep within yourself and see the interconnection between the happenings in your life and your soul. To evaluate your life. Otherwise, you can spend all your life sleeping, until your next life. Life after life.
You could truly achieve anything you wanted in life. You could generate any kind of energy to manifest, anything that is in line with your higher purpose. The future has not happened yet, it's forming now, in this moment. It's your choice, your responsibility to shape it.
You are in the best place you could be right now. Here, in France with your mother, spending some time to recharge. Wipe off that misery of your beautiful face, and be grateful that it happened that you can write and pond on things. You were supposed to do it long ago.
Read a nice book, do your hair, your nails, watch a meaningful movie. It's Christmas time, his birthday to celebrate.
With him, you could not even read a book in peace. See him, for what he is and let it go.
You have so much to do on this planet. You need to write a book, travel, open your health centre. Meet and help more and more people. No wonder you can't find your place and feeling stuck. You stopped the time until you hesitated. It's time to move, to create again.
You need to look after yourself.
Think about yourself, what your heart desires. Who are you, who you want to become?