I've heard that we can relate life events to places as much as we can experience flashbacks into the past and recall memories with particular smells.
The sea is beautiful just as it was last year and entirely calm.
When I think about going back to London, I have no fears comparing to last year. I was not looking forward to the trip back. Now I'm different. I had the necessary time to heal, to be alone and to contemplate on my future. Although I do know that I am not perfect having my own flows, I took big steps towards improving several parts of my personality, or rather changing feelings in those areas, my approach to them.
Procrastination was one of them. Now we're standing face to face. I can look into its eyes. Interestingly I had a dream about this few days ago, that I performed exorcism on myself. I had to look at myself in a mirror and I saw in my eyes there was an entity. I looked very bravely and I think I scared it away, I saw it coming out of my facial features. It hissed at me.
After being here, I need to remind myself of cleansing my mind regularly. It really helps. Meditating every day, listening to my favourite music, singing and enjoying life. Smiling, vibrating good energy around me.
I'm not afraid of dying as much as before. I asked for it, and saw my future. It is wonderful full of miracles. Finally, I have to courage to perform acts of service and compassion. For myself. For the sake of my own mission.
Thank you for being so patient with me, for loving me even when I did not love myself enough.
I asked for signs and guidance and I was given. There must me something tremendous behind this all.
I found a feather on my bed this morning.
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