My dream was very vivid and I woke up still feeling it very strong.
It was long time ago in history. I loved a young man maybe called Tom. He was not treating me very well. I wanted to end the relationship with him. Then another another man came, he loved me, cared about me and he was very wealthy. He was some kind of researcher or teacher or even an explorer in Egypt, he had one of those beige hats and looked like Indiana Jones, but his hair was blonde and had full body type. I knew if I marry him, I would never have to worry about anything. His name was Elliott, I clearly remember this. Even though I knew eventually I could love him, my heart was beating for someone else, for the young guy.
Anyway, we were supposed to have a wedding and I looked down at my left hand and I saw that I had his ring and my ring melted into one ring, and it had the Scarab. It was Elliott's ring from his university or the place he worked for. A scarab ring.
I panicked and just before going into the building, I told Elliot that I need to tell him something. He was very understanding took my hand and listened to me. I said that I'm afraid of the marriage. I said that I don't want to become one of those couples who after years just sit next to each other, and have nothing to say to another. It's so sad. He comforted me and said don't worry. We'll not be. Let's just try it. He gives me all the time I need. He was truly amazing.
But I was so stupid, because I wanted to be with Tom, the young guy. He was also poor and not very educated. We shared a passionate and young kind of love. I was looking for him from the hotel's (or some sort of bar) window the next day. And when he came, I saw that he has flowers. I did not come out, I thought he will understand this though he didn't know that I got married to Elliot. He left after some time, and I went out taking the same route as him, or meet him on the way. I was in a carriage with horses. I looked ta him from the window. He saw me and threw the flowers on the floor. I knew it's going to be over. So I run into my destiny, and met him and spent time with him. (I think my husband was away on some trip) I knew, that the whole situation will exploit in some time because they will know about each other and I will never come out clean of this terrible situation, so I just enjoyed the last moments with my love. Untill he loved me trusting.
It happened to me, it was in my past life. Elliott, I am terribly sorry. I should have stayed with you. You could have gave me protection, happiness and the caring type of love.
I don't know if reincarnation exists, but if there is some grand design that makes us forget our past lives, I understand the importance and purpose of it. I'm still in my dream, having the strong feelings felt, trying to find Elliott (maybe Williams) in history, wanting to make things differently or at least to find out, if all these really happened. I know it did, I feel it.
I want to purchase a scarab ring in London for myself.
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