About the fear of 'I have nothing to say' October 20

I went for a run today. Then I walked while I marvelled at the nature around me. Being away gave me time to think and concentrate on what I want to achieve in my near future.

A picture of me talking publicly came up in my imagination. I asked myself 'how am I going to achieve this'? Then I had this sudden flush in my head, a feeling through my body like a sentence saying 'but I have nothing to say'. I could recognise it was definitely a limiting belief. But where was it coming from? I have never failed in public speaking before.

And here I saw a moment in my imagination, traced far in my past when I was a student in my school. I had to recitate to my head teacher. It was one of the first classes in the first year. I knew, that I did not study in terms of memorising but I could talk about the matter. As I always did, intuitively.

But what happened is that I received a bad mark from the teacher, because she said that is not enough or not right how I study and I need to memorise and talk logically about the subjects, coming up with the facts only in the right order. From this point, I just tried to remember these facts, written by other  people.

Here I am standing at the beginning of my career. I don't need to recite other people's thoughts. It is not about this anymore: it's about me, giving myself, my knowledge to the world. I can do it as it should be: intuitively.

This is how I recognised an internal conflict within myself and classified it as a limiting belief. I am thinking about how to eliminate it. Maybe I should go back in time and speak to my 15 years old self.

And what would you say to her?
-That she was just different from other children, who needed to learn by rules. Her knowledge is wisdom, not logic or IQ.

I would also use Boundary Tapping here and notice, that with my 15 years old self, my current self is beginning to feel better. Lighter. More capable of achieving.

-You have something to say. Quite frankly, you have something important to say to everyone. And you can access this inner wisdom at any time.