It wasn't too late in the evening but it was already dark. We crossed the four way road, me walking home and her to meet her boyfriend. My friend, E decided to leave London and all together the whole country to move back.
The whole happening made me understand something. The feelings evoked where different this time, they were new to me. I thought, in general in our friendships we kind of give and take emotions-wise. The fact that she won't be around anymore would change the level of my feelings to her? Would I love her less just because she will not be in my 'inner circle' anymore? She won't be here to call, to listen to me.
Bullshit, I said. Who said we can't love our friends more than they love us, unconditionally without letting them know. The feeling of love experienced is wonderful it does not expects anything and doesn't ask back.
This is how it came to me, that same as when having relationships we can also love in friendships, unconditionally. From this point, it does not matter how much she would be there for me. My feelings are steady and they make me happy.
As we walked together, the moon was coming up on the horizon. And it was enormous, I have never seen it this big, especially not while living in this big city. Big moon in the big city. And we are in it, small people with our small things to carry on with.
I wish that with this moon may all that no longer serves you or make you unhappy would vanish. A period would end, and something new and fresh would start.
'Thank you.' She said.
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