I know if I don't put my ideas and dreams into art, they die off like Autumn leafs mixing together with mud after rain later becoming soil.
So creative, so young and full of doubts and hesitation. All is fear.
I had this picture on my mind, taking photos of women different age with a piece of paper things written on it. I would ask random strangers. It would begin with "I don't want...." then would reveal some very personal, shocking secret. Like 'I don't want to be a mother'. With three children around her. Or "I don't want my children to see that we're poor". Or something like this.
You need to create in every moment, every day. Otherwise you will die.
Today is Christmas day and the moon was completely full at 11.11 AM in Cancer. We were doing meditation together with Him. We scrubbed our keywords into each candle. As I was looking at these words, it made me think perhaps we already have what we ask for. Perhaps it is already with us, we just need some kind of confirmation. His was 'BEGINNINGS' and mines' 'FAITH'. It was so little what I put into, so small. Made me much stronger, definitely. Made me capable of life and living. Made me a lone wolf. Made me do things for myself, help without looking for reward. Made me look into the mirror and see clearly myself. Now it's time to get my faith back.
Ps. you're a wonderful writer my darling.
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