They say,
my black and white thinking can get me into troubles.
I say,
tell me what is the colour in between?
It's just grey. Grey as the colour of the sky on a cold, wet February day.
Year of a monkey, you really testing my patience and my power.
I had a dream last night. I was at a beautiful seaside with some friends. Then out of a sudden, Poseidon, the God of seas and oceans came up. He was a merman. He gave me a present, it was shoes I needed to try on. So I did. As soon as I put these shoes on, the laces started to run up on my legs, like some wall climbing plants, and I could not escape. When they finally covered up all the skin of my legs, I realised they formed a fishtail. I became a mermaid, just like them.
I did not want to spend my time anymore with humans. I felt other mermaids around me, swimming in the shallow clean blue water. It's like we could communicate and feel each other telepathically. Well, I guess this dream speaks for itself. I'm such an alien. Like I'm always being in a wrong place.
Maybe, it was God who came in my dream. He offered me to become an angel. Maybe, this is a dream in front of me, and when I'm dreaming I return back home.
It is undoubtedly one of those periods, when the only cheer I have is to take a shower in the mornings, imagining it is warm rain on a Summer day.
The lovely girl M, who I have met yesterday for the first time, advised me to ask for a wish, then to think of something else.
I found my wish hidden in my old diary, dated back to 2011. Still asking for that wonderful job, that I deserve. What else should I go through, to get it? I'm bulletproof. Leave me alone with this testing. I want to be happy with my work finally.
